@marcelafae posted this on twitter and I had to share it.  Enjoy this quick clip.

My life is really warped and strange.  Not because I am abused to violated or anything like that, because I’m not.  Not because I am into dark, evil things like shrunken heads, skulls, black widows, or only leaving the house at night–I’m not.  My life is really strange because I have so many directions I would like to pursue and can only do so one at a time.  This means my other pursuits suffer and have to wait–feeling like they are dying inside of me.

I guess I should have known that I wasn’t going to be the average kid growing up.  Hell I had my dad buy me some General Electric stock for my 9th birthday.  If that wasn’t a warning sign, then I don’t know what is.  My problem right now is that I don’t have a problem.  I am not oppressed, not segregated, not held back financially or mentally (other than by myself), I don’t struggle for anything, there is food on the table and in my stomach, I can lay my head down and not worry about if I am going to wake up.

GE Stock Performance

You might look at that and say that my problem is a lack of self motivation.  And I would respond, yes and no, I am very self motivated, but when the going gets tough, I tend to become more motivated to bail or move on to something else.  This is a problem, and one that I can not address outright because once I quit something, I want to take it back up again.

Take computer science for example–my first intended major–I got out of that because I didn’t want to sit behind a desk all day hacking out code for something that wouldn’t be appreciated.  I also didn’t like the long hours that I would have to put in each week on homework.  But now that I don’t do that anymore, I am so frustrated and curious about it because I can’t program for the web in a way that I think I should.  But that project is essentially on hold.

Right now I am studying business.  Will I get my major in business?  I don’t know.  I am already looking at three and a half years of school on top of the year that I already put in–if I am to get my degree in business.  But while I study macro economics, marketing, and accounting, my mind wanders back to computers–code implementation, design, layout, digital photography, graphics, et cetera.  And then I get confused about where I need to go.

To me studying business is a means to an end.  And I know that I don’t need to get a degree in business to do what I want to do–I just need a solid foundation, a good understanding to get the ball rolling.  I don’t really want to work for a business as an accountant, a marketer, sales person or some sort of analyst.  I want to do my own thing and hire those people.  I want to free up my time.

But obviously, I need to make money to start businesses and keep my head above the water.  To do this I would much rather have a career in digital media or photography or something that I enjoy.  When I see websites like Really Japan or Playgroundblues, my mind starts taking them apart piece by piece.  I start thinking about the div layouts and how images are placed.  Then I start to give up because they become too sufisticated.  This screams to me that I need to study this more or pursue this in college so I have an understanding of website infrastructures, how to use jQuery, and coding in languages like PHP and Ajax.

Photo from Real Japan

But the same thing happens with business. I start to realize what it takes to run a business and when I see places like McDonalds, body shops, or retirement homes, pieces just start coming apart.  I see the marketing–signs in windows, fliers, commercials–I see the customers buying the product–burgers or mufflers or the room they stay in–I see operational expenses–rent, employees, maintenece, products that have to be purchased so they can be resold to the consumer–I see the balance sheets being made, et cetera.  It all starts coming together.

The thing that scares me is whenever my mind can start taking things apart like that, it means I am really interested.  Right now there are at least three areas–for me–in which this happens.  Business, websites, and to a lesser degree, Spanish (the language).  But if I was to study everything to its fullest extent, I would be in school forever-ever.

I guess that is why I am studying business at the moment.  To me it is a means to an end.  Something that I can invest time into right now, start investing and then start to minimize my involvement until I have other people running the show for me.  Granted I will step in to make important decisions and to start new things or contribute new ideas, but I want to be the owner not the manager. I want my time to do with what I will.

To me the big question is how far do I have to follow through with my studies?  I feel as if I got to intermediate business courses and then switched my major to digital media while investing and working on the side, I would be able to make it.  This is the means to then end.  Still fuzzy, still unsure about which path I am going to take after business, but I know I don’t want to sit behind a desk.

Screenshot from Playgroundblues

I am pretty excited for the next couple of months.  Particularly Novemeber because that is when Quantum of Solace comes out as well as Twilight which got move up into Harry Potters spot.  But those can wait because right now there is a movie out that I didn’t even know about until I was on Rotten Tomatoes today.

I want to see Vicky Christina Barcelona.  Apparently it got pretty decent reviews on Rotten Tomatoes but I didn’t even see any bit of advertising for it this summer.  I don’t even think it is playing in a local theater–which makes me turn to the internet.  Where I can’t find it streaming anywhere either.  But I didn’t look that hard.

After I see that, I would maybe like to see Wanted–that came out a few months ago?  I didn’t make it.  But I am also really excited to Nick and Norah’s Infinite Playlist.  If it is even half as good as Juno, it will be worth going to see.  I guess I should start saving up my money.

I was just surfing through the internet today and came upon this image.  I though you would enjoy it.

Today has been crazy.  I had two classes, drove probably sixty+ miles, opened bank accounts, picked up some stuff for my grand mother, hung out and played pool, read a chapter of the Bible and a chapter of the 48 Laws of Power, placed over a dozen phone calls, saw a kid on a unicycle go down somewhere in the neighborhood of 36 stairs on purpose–he just road down them, it was freaking amazing, called about an item on Craigslist, went to see the item on Craigslist, decided not to purchase it, update my blog, and probably beat my high speed record in a car while I was driving.

Seriously I only did about 85, I don’t think that is too bad.  I was in a car that was well over 90 and I told the guy driving to slow down.  Anyway, here is another cool image.

Apparently my sister thinks I look like Hunter Parish.  Last night we watched Freedom Writers–it really wasn’t half bad.  Hunter Parish makes a pretty big appearance in that movie so she went IMDBing him or something.

Anyway she sent me a photo and I had to dig to find one of me with short hair.  Sorry I wasn’t smiling–this was me June 1st, 2007.  My hair wasn’t as long then.

Seriously, if you are a designer and you are not following Felipe Tofani on twitter or you haven’t seen this guy’s showcase website http://pristina.org, then you really are missing out.

He not only showcases some of the best designs out there–and I’m not talking just web design, like design and art in general–he makes really cool digital art too.  Check out his personal site http://ftofani.com/ and you will be blown away by the quality of his work.  I love his designs for the Salomon Snowboard contest.  Plus I ride Salomon, so props.

He is also a pretty nice guy–he has taken time to answer email questions I have asked and if I @ him on twitter, he always seems to hit me back.  So check him out.

Several months ago I saw this cool bottle design at the grocery store.  I liked the simplistic nature of the lable and how it worked well with the clear bottle.  I snapped a few pictures of it on my cell phone and went on my way.

Yesterday I was going through my cell phone pictures while at the grocery store and I came across the picture of the bottle.  I remembered that it was in the organic food isle and I saw from the picture that the drink was called ‘hint.’  So I moseyed over to the isle and quickly came across the drink again.

I saw that it was flavored water and I decided to get a bottle to try.  I picked up a ‘mango-grapefruit hint’ and took it home a put it in the fridge.  Now I have gotten around to drinking it.

Let me say that upon opening the bottle, the drink smells great.  A first sip and I was dissappointed.  It had just a hint of flavor–hence the marketing–and a really bad after taste.  After a few more sips it got a little bit better.  But after I went to collect the pictures of the bottle and design, I took another drink and it was really bad again.

I would say stay away from ‘hint.’  Or at least try some of the other flavors.  Viatamin Water of Gatorade would be a good alternative and in the same 1.49 price range.

So I have decided that making a twitter compilation post everyday on my blog is probably super lame, so I will stop that from happening from now on.  It doesn’t really add any good content and just spams my facebook notes with my twitter posts each day.  Who wants to read that?

I also made a decision about school yesterday.  I decided to drop my management class and sign up for a photography class.  One because I like photography and am always pissed that I don’t work more at it.  Two because I couldn’t get into the class at Drexel because it was filled and I really didn’t have an SLR camera at the time.  Three because I want to do something fun, and who knows, maybe I will be able to make money at it some day.

I have also decided that I don’t want to work behind a desk for the next thirty years of my life.  But that is neither here nor there because I really hope to be financially independent in about 15 years, which really means I should get cracking on that.  Real estate is the way to go, and that is what I am going to do.  Hence the business classes this term.  Will I like them?  I don’t know.  Will I get my degree in it?  Maybe.  Do I look forward to doing accounting or financial work for the next 15 years.  Lets just say I really have no plan to.  Studying business is just the flavor of the month until I really figure out what I want to do.

Another decision was to mess around in Wordpress today and make this nice Office theme.  I am using an image from Mandolux.  To fully appreciate this theme you have to have your viewing resolution at 1900 x 1200.  I know that is big for some of you, but suck it up and get a good monitor already.

In other news, I finally got a job and will begin hating it tomorrow when I have to go into training.  It really wont be that bad because I worked there three years ago and have a very good understanding of what I have to do already.  Plus I will only be working 2 days a week at most, because of school.

This year is getting interesting already.  Althought whenever I watch the olympics I get this feeling of how small I am compared to some movements, ideas, and people.  I really get depressed and feel inferior.  I want to travel, see new things, go new places.  That has to happen sometime soon or I am going to explode.

• Macks foe dinner. #
• Ice cream rom Giant. #
• What is the third language on the parade signs? English, chinese, and what? French maybe? #
• Anyone else find it weird that chinese kids are singing in Greek. #
• He gets to fly and light the torch. Sweet. #
• Wow, think about how much information is being collected, moved, and shown on the olympics. its a huge number. #
• Sometimes I think I am the antichrist. And other times I think it is just misguided direction. Im not evil. #
• Took care of some paper work that has been lying around. #
• @55566688833 Aw! I should totally come to rehobeth. We used to go there all the time. How long are you there? #
• Twitter is really dead today. I had some China Wok General Taos for lunch., #
• I am sleepy. #

• Emo. #
• But in case I go there everyday, to make myself feel bad. There’s a chance that I’ll start to wonder if this was the thing to do. #
• http://yolaurenfischer.muxtape.com/ #
• Mmm. userscripts has made my night. #
• When bands breakup their music should become public property. #
• you with your hair should be in no position to comment about my pixel hair #
• @eac822 I dont understand! #
• I want someone provocative and talkative. #
• Yeah, so I’m already dead
  On the inside, but I can still pretend
  With my memories and photographs
  I have learned to love the lie #
• The book store is being a pain. I want the ISBN. #
• I need to get some breakfast. #
• Im a mess, Im a wreck, I am perfect, and I have learned to accept all my problems and shortcomings cause I am so visceral yet deeply inept. #
• Skateboarded. Now I am going to waste some time even though I shouldn’t. #
• Can anyone get me an invitation to Brightkite? If so DM me and I will send email. #
• I just broke into the tshirt business lol. @55566688833 what do you think?
  http://tinyurl.com/6knxsp #
• Debating whether or not to get a shower. Hmmz. #
• @hexxd1 check out the tshirt i made http://tinyurl.com/6knxsp #
• @hexxd1 but soooo funny. lol. #
• I wish the storm would come already. #
• @litensko hmm almost forgot, happy birthday. #
• @choiceshirts dont you wish your shirts were hot like this? http://tinyurl.com/6knxsp #
• In the last 6 months I have had web traffic originating in 53 countries. #
• Who has weddings on a friday evening. Thats a party foul. #